Ten years ago, if I had tried to practice this RAW, I would have had to donate at least $1000 in a week( unfortunately! I used to be easily agitated in mind and outside, generally angry if things were not done the way one would like to. I was ambitious- with no real clarity of purpose. I was looking for something and unsure what it was and felt so lost, which made it worse. In brief, I was confused. I didn’t realize until few years ago, (thanks to grace of my guru), that I had been looking for my SELF!

By Bhagvans and gurus grace, the mind has been exposed to Vedanta and is slowly been getting trained to not be dependent on Articles, Beings and Circumstances. The major cause of being shaken in my situation these days is the Beings and circumstances. I have realized I still have lot of attachment to ‘ Time’. It really agitates me if things don’t happen on time especially if it’s due to someone’s else’s procrastination ( i.e Husband….. who else to blame!). I realize that this agitates me so,because of my expectations.

So last Sunday morning, I did get agitated but surprisingly I recovered much quickly. Forgiveness comes much easily now and I don’t keep on dwelling on the situation. I play less ‘ blame- game’ and try to see what is there to learn. I also try to look at the positive rather than negative in people around me( who I’m to judge- being myself a model of numerous imperfections).

Now the ‘ agitating situation’ becomes more about moment of reflection and what it is trying to teach me about myself rather than the perceived offender. I try to let go of coarse feelings.

Let what comes, come. Let what goes, go. Find out what remains.~ Ramana Maharishi