He is with me all the time holding my hand yet I still cry because of the perceived separation. There are numerous events that make His protection obvious but I will highlight the one which shows His love.

For decades I was looking for a deeper meaning. Even as a child I felt that the life I was living had more to it than what was apparent. This went on for years until it came to a stage that I felt desperate to find that ‘ missing factor’.

It came to the point that I felt that I cannot die without finding what I was looking for though totally unsure of what it was. I delved in my own self devised contemplation, some japa but most of all I prayed for Him to show me the way.

And yes….. as they say when the student is ready, the teacher appears!

Two people came in my life who brought me closer to Him; who opened my ‘ eyes’ ; who showed me the way. My dearest friend Ruma who lives in Mumbai and has been blessed by His love and divine knowledge. She was the first one to hold my hand and lead me to Him.

Within 3 months of this episode, our family met Vivekji in January 2014. My life was transformed. With the guru Krupa came Shastra Krupa. I was lost and He found me and guided me through my guru/s. This particular event was the one that shows that He loves me unconditionally.

That feeling that I’m not doing what I came to do in this lifetime is gone because I know my path now. The path that leads to Him.

That is the only purpose.

Yes! He loves me and is guiding me towards Him.