3/2/21
RAD- this body is gift from God
This thought took years to ripen. The Vedantic teaching and Vivekji’s guidance has helped me. internalize this. We are given what’s best for us. As I reflect more, this deepens more.
So when I talk to my 16 year old self-
I can reassure her. I can wipe her tears of sadness for thinking she was ugly; I can perhaps take off her thick black framed glasses which made her feel bug eyed, and kiss her. I can quell her fears of being judged. I can perhaps give her a hug holding her skinny, awkward, unsure frame. I should tell her that He loves her.
And when I talk to me 25 year old self-
as she sat alone in beautiful city full of strangers, I can tell her not to feel lonely. Or when she prostrated at His door, the tears that flowed always confused her. I can tell her that these tears are not from feeling less than others, of heartbreaks and disappointment, this was His calling. I can hold her and tell her how strong she is.
To my past 40 year old self-
the body, the circumstances, the family is all His gift. Staaney. Death may be coming but He is there to take care all who I leave behind. This body is forever dying but it is a tool in my sadhana. Give it only as much as it needs. No, you don’t need Botox to look younger, you don’t need juvederm to fill laugh lines. Bhagavan just loves me the way your are because He created me. People who depend on me, love me truly won’t love me more if my skin is younger. This body does not define me. I’m still. a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister etc with ever changing body. Yet this body has a lot of functionality. The only purpose is to use it to reach the fundamentals. This body is a gift.
